If you ever ask me why I want to marry you, here's why... I've wanted to marry you since the very first day. The very first day I wanted to know everything about you; what makes you tick, what makes you smile. I wanted to marry you because you are the first person I want to see when I wake up and the only forehead I want to kiss goodnight. I've wanted to marry you because the first time, you held my hand, I couldn't imagine not holding it for the rest of my life. And when you told me you loved me and I knew you meant it, it was sweeter than any song I've ever heard. I could hear it a million times and it could never get old. The song lyrics, I love you more today than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow are a lie. The day I knew I loved you, I was all in, I loved you with every fiber in my being. I will never be able to love you more than I do today, then I did that day, than I will tomorrow. that's an impossible feat. you're my person, my love. A few years back God spoke to me and said "I'm sending you to a man who needs to learn to love and needs to feel love the right way; what it feels like when it's true and when it stays, he will teach you to live again. but you need to teach him to love again." so I let him choose you for me and me for you. I can't promise that dark clouds will never hover over our lives or that our future will bring us an abundant amount of rainbows. I can't promise you that tomorrow will be perfect and that life will be easy. I can however, promise you my devotion, my loyalty, my respect and my unconditional love for our lifetime. I can promise you that I will always be here for you, to listen to you and to hold your hand, and I'll do my best to make you happy and feel loved all the days of your life and mine. I can promise I will see you through any crisis and pray with you and dream with you and build with you. I will always cheer you on and encourage you. I can promise you that I will willingly be your protector, not because you are weak but because you are important. I promise to be your advisor, your counselor, your family, your best friend, your everything. I promise all of this to you. and if I could ask you to make a promise to me in return; it is to live at least one minute longer than me, so I never have to know what it feels like to live without you. 20 years, 30 years, 40 years, will never be long enough. It will never be long enough to show you all of the love that I have for you. But I will spend each and every one of those 20, 30, 40 years trying my hardest to show you, if you'll let me. I love you babe.  

Forever

I want to come home to my forever. I want to come home to my one and only. I want to come home And feel loved. I want to come home to the one that God has set aside for me. I want to come home to pray with him, play with him and dance with him. I want my forever. I deserve my forever.

Destiny

 She was destined to love you!! Don't hold on to what's already gone. You don't have to SELL love. She already knows YOUR worth. She knows you deserve to be loved Through the good, the bad, the ugly, the ups and the downs. Love that can't be FAKED, FORGED or FORGOTTEN. Love that NEVER fails and ALWAYS graduates with HONORS. Because she is smart enough to love your imperfections and see you as a masterpiece. You are already SPECIAL. You are already AMAZING. You are already GOOD enough. You deserve people who listen to you, understand you, appreciate you because when LOVE is real... people will FIGHT to keep you in their life! Every moment was a building block for a better blessing. Now it's time to prepare for it. There's NO love lost. Because New love is FOUND.

Masterpiece

 He doesn’t trust easily. I can see that in the distance that he creates between himself and everyone around him. But he has much love to offer and I can see it in the kindness of his seldom smile he gives me. He has a million chaotic galaxies of thoughts, thousands of tangled up worlds of words and places in his mind. I can see it in the way his eyes seem somewhat lost, like they are somewhere else. It’s seems he wants to be somewhere else. I see it in his restlessness. Life never went easy for him and he doesn’t go easy on himself. He is strong. I can see it it his eyes. I can sense it in his voice. I believe that his body, heart, soul and his mind can recover and rebuild after being broken. He knows what it’s like to feel worthless, unworthy, unloved, defenseless, dismissed, denied and under-appreciated. I see the beauty in his quirks, in his scars and in his soul.  He is a masterpiece. He is my heart.

Surrender

 In your lifetime you will meet that one person who will love you more than anyone you have ever known and will ever know. They will love you with every bit of energy in their soul. They will sacrifice, surrender and give you so much love that it scares you.  Hold onto that person. Because a love like that is rare and only comes once in a lifetime. 

I will Find you.

 I can hear the sound of your barely beating heart.  Pieces on the ground from the world that fell apart.  Just hold on. It won’t be long. I will find you, here inside the dark. I will break through. No matter where you are. I WILL find you.  I won’t let you fall, I won’t let you go. I will help you find your heart.

Fear

 I love him fearlessly with so much fear. How is that? 

I give him my love fearlessly with the fear that he will never feel the same. 

You ever just put your heart out there with blind faith and not know where you stand? 

This is where I am. Wanting him, needing him. Questioning everything. Who I am. Who I am to him. Where we are. What our future holds. 

It’s not that I want to be loved so bad, is that I want him to love me so good. To be his absolute everything as he is to me.

It’s sucks not knowing where you stand and when they just can’t tell you, is where you start wondering if you, indeed, are enough for their heart to hold onto. 

I want so bad to be his heart, his love, his home. 

Finding your worth is a lot harder than when you are in the dark. 

I know I am worthy, but sometimes I don’t feel he sees that. 

He is my heart. He is my future. I love him deep in my soul. 

I just wish he felt the same love. That he never had to question if I am worth it. If we are worth it. 

I know there is something special, something different. Something real about him. I feel that. I know it. 

I keep saying to myself, The one who says I can’t love you, once loved someone unconditionally. And that Is what i see. He once, twice and more times loved someone so unconditionally, that he hasn’t any left for me. 

My biggest fear is that he doesn’t have love left in his heart to give to me. I do hope he sees my unconditional, love and support. Absolutely since day one. I keep thinking that he’ll come around and realize this is it. It can be our end all be all. And I will fear no more.