After the Affair

The first year was the emotional rollercoaster year. The first year was full of tears. I cried on my way to work on a daily basis. I cried at work. I cried at night when the house was dark and quiet. I cried as I watched my husband with our children acting as if nothing had happened. I cried until I became numb. The first year was full of triggers. Everything disgusted me. The way he breathed, the way he ate, the way he dresses, the way he went out as if it was no big deal.  By the end of year one I was beginning to focus on learning to live with the affair and not letting it control my emotions. Just living with it.